Dream chronicles 2
I dreamt I was out with some friends, but the whole situation was uncomfortable for various reasons. One of them was taking substances every 30 minutes, and all I could do was awkwardly say “yassss” over and over. They had also invited a guy I used to like.
Technically, he’s their friend, but seeing him again after months of no contact made me both excited and sick.
When he arrived, he was acting distant and weird. I thought maybe he was dating someone, which I understood, but it still made me feel terrible.
He had completely cut his hair and shaved off all his facial hair, and every time I tried to have a conversation with him, I couldn’t stop focusing on how different he looked. Without his hair, he resembled someone who had just come out of prison or a mental asylum—or maybe he just looked really young.
During our conversation, he told me he had started a relationship with another man.
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I was genuinely happy for him, but his appearance kept throwing me off. His eyes looked like they were about to pop out of his face, and his attitude felt off-putting. The scariest part was how unsettling he looked without any hair.
When I was younger, I didn’t like hairy arms, chest hair, or facial hair on men. But in the past two years, that has completely changed. Now, I find myself attracted to maturity—not in age, but in demeanor and character as well.
The guy I’m talking about, though, doesn’t strike me as particularly mature—at least not in age, since he is much younger than me. Still, I wonder if this dream was some sort of metaphor for how I perceive him now.
I do hope he grows his hair out again if, by some chance, he actually shaved it all off like in my dream. And, more than that, I hope that, over time, he gains the kind of maturity that I find myself drawn to these days.
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